I am on a holiday, perhaps a coach trip to Edinburgh or Paris or somewhere else. There is some confusion or hiatus in the trip and I am alone for a while. I find myself in a cafe or cinema with Leonard Cohen and I am in tears, saying ‘I’m still a young person but already I am thinking about loss’. I am wondering how he will react. Then I am in a lift with a nurse and paramedics being taken to the emergency department. I am talking to them about my medical problem deciding whether to go to get help or not, being doubtful that its either serious or could be helped